"All these macho Marines surrounded me and I had to play it cool but I wanted to curl up and die. I wanted to cry. But I couldn't."
"I couldn't (and still can't) understand how someone could be so cavalier - especially a woman. It's always been my understanding that women are the ones who get emotional. That is another humiliating aspect to me. I took on the role of a woman."
"I have not had sex because I know it would only make my heart feel worse. I have been there and done that before. You cannot cure heartache with meaningless sex. That's a total illusion."
"No matter where I went I could see what we had done from time to time and the thought of her leaving just tore me up so bad that it took years to overcome."